SELF AWARENESS MOMENT for February 25, 2012

Sometimes I have so many things spinning in my head at one time I think I’m on the brink of insanity.  Do you have any idea what it is like to get up day after day unaware of what you are supposed to do?

Sure I have plenty to do, a lot of stuff that will pass the time by way to quickly, yet at day’s end I feel as if there is something more, something of greater significance.  At this age I have discovered that I am the coach, team, observers and cheerleader.  Once this came to mind I realized the unbalance of such an existence, the stress, the difficulty of playing the role of all positions.  Now I know this may sound as if I lack modesty or appreciation for what is right in my life.  Not so, I just see a grave imbalance in it all.  It’s like one day things are moving along in life not fearful of anything and then the next day you are aware that you are further away from your beginning and closer to what others may see as your end.  Today you realize that things don’t taste like they use to, look like they use to, taste like they use to and even more important feel like they use to. 

My life has become defined by how much I wish I had done instead of a sense of how much I’ve done.  It’s like the timer set for my life has been tampered with and now is moving at an alarming pace.  So here I go trying to take control of me.  Because after all, the only true thing I have autonomy over is me.  Everything else I’ve tried to influence, motivate, or encourage doesn’t belong to me and should be of less concern. 

People ask me all the time, why haven’t you written a book?  I use to think I hadn’t because I didn’t know what to write about.  But the real reason is I’ve been afraid that if I write a book it wouldn’t be good enough that others would read it.  Now I know that I need to write it to increase my confidence.  And, just perhaps it can increase someone else.  

Now what should the title be?  What should the subject matter be about?  Lets see, OH!  I got it.  Since people are always seeking my advice, opinion, consideration about all things life I think I will write a HOW TO BOOK.  How to what?  How about HOW TO PRACTICE SELF AWARENESS a daily guide to enjoy life one day at a time © Zenobia's Daughter 2012

My SELF AWARENESS MOMENT for 02/25/2012 is as follows:  At this moment I am engaged in what I call a BRAIN DUMP (thoughts and activities used as material for this blog post).  I am currently at home seated at my desk listening to Here We Go Again by the Isley Brothers.

 

My proud accomplishment for today is I ate healthy.  Which reminds me to send Mr. Mack a text Mr. Mack asking him not to bring me another Filet of Fish sandwich from McDonald’s on his way home from work at midnight again.  Just because they are currently 2 for $3 doesn’t make them any less unhealthy.

What is your self awareness moment for today?   Please comment about yours here.

Thank you.